Why do I believe in God?

I have never been able to believe things just because I am told to or because I am supposed to "have faith". I believe things because I can see how they work.

On the contrary, or in spite of this, I believe in God.

The reason I believe in God is because of person revelatory experience. Pretty convincing, live changing, sensory events. I have had two distinct contacts or awarenesses of God. I understand that this might be a sign of a serious brain injury or illness, but since it was only once when I was 10 and once when I was 15, I'm going to say it's not a chronic or degenerative condition.

One might ask if I was indoctrinated into a theistic religion, and perhaps I was. If so, it didn't stick, I hold to no standard religion and have never really done so. I do often attend religious celebrations, but they range across most religions. I have studied Buddhism and Hinduism as much as I have studied the Lutheranism of my childhood. I went through Catholic training and did cursory studies of several defunct religions including the pagan religions of my ancestry. So what? I also study different types of music, arts, the sciences. I study everything. I studied Atheism with concerted effort for several years. Of course. Everyone should, IMO.

So I am left with a lot of contradicting things I am told to believe exclusively, two subjective experiences, and a tendency not to believe things unless I can identify the mechanism.

That last is why people in religions eventually get angry at me. I am supposed to believe that it's all just magic. There is no mechanism, they say, just God. If you try to figure Him out, He goes away.

Well, bullshit, I say. And on this blog I hope to explain how God works.